Brittany O

Can’t Stop Drinking? – How I Overcame Alcoholism!

Topic: Can’t Stop Drinking? – How I Overcame Alcoholism!


  • Unfortunately, in our society, there is not a lot of conversation or information about alcoholism
  • The thought of living without the crutch of alcohol can be terrifying…
  • Sometimes you have or do hit rock bottom before you quit, but not always – For Terry hitting bottom was almost losing his life over alcohol which started his journey into sobriety
  • Terry – mirrored what others with sobriety did in order to stay sober
  • What are the steps if you are at the point where you have no idea what to do?:
    • Look at it for what it is medically – society doesn’t take this seriously
    • Withdrawal from alcohol could be DEADLY
    • Alcohol is what mostly causes all your problems when you are in active addiction (Alcoholic Spiral)
    • GO TO YOUR DOCTOR and you must be honest in order to get through detox safely
    • Learn to accept help
    • Do everything you possibly can to stay sober
  • Alcoholism is physical and mental
  • Your mind plays tricks on you to think that you can just have one… or that you can go back… but, the problem is you are powerless after you have that first drink
  • Your mind will try to justify reasons to drink
  • Rock bottom for some is that you just can’t quit, but how much are you willing to take?
  • What is going to help you is understanding alcoholism and how it works
  • With alcohol, companies don’t give you the appropriate side effects – depression, mental confusion, dizziness, anger, irritability…
  • This is NOT you – you are under the influence and it’s reeking havoc on your body and mind
  • Everyone that struggles with alcoholism everyone is on the verge of getting everything they need once they push through – Marcus
  • You will learn things from anyone whether they have one day or 30 years… keep an open mind to what others in sobriety tell you
  • You have to create limitations for yourself, especially in early sobriety
  • Alcoholism can creep in easily and you have to be prepared for it
  • You do start feeling better quickly
  • Most alcoholics can relate to each other in some way
  • Emotions are not something we need to push out of our minds – society puts that in your head and it’s totally normal
  • Alcohol wants to teach us to isolate and force us to think there is no one out there that cares – you have to say no to this, you have to push it out
  • Caution against sadness in regard to feeling sorry for yourself (Self-absorbed) – if you are wallowing in self-pity, do something different and get focus off of yourself
  • Gratitude is KEY
  • 15-minute rule – Not just for drinking, but for life – pause, stop, relax reflect
  • Last thing to think about… is some peoples bottoms are 6 feet under…

The Truth About Getting A Sponsor For Alcoholics – Do We Really Need A Sponsor? Can It Cause Harm?


  • What is a Sponsor? A sponsor can be misconstrued sometimes. At times there are people who put their sobriety in someone else’s hands. Sponsors are there to guide you through recovery
  • Brittany had experiences with having Sponsors – a woman came up to her at one point and told her she would absolutely not stay sober without one
  • The way Brittany got her Sponsor by simply calling out in a meeting one time she needed one and it didn’t work out as she chose someone who she didn’t know
  • When choosing a Sponsor it’s important to find someone that connects with you which will help make the relationship stronger
  • In Brittany’s opinion, it’s a mistake to become someone’s Sponsor early in sobriety as your foundation needs to super strong and that could put extra pressure on you
  • Marcus did AA for the first 90 days – 90/90 meetings – he found someone that was OK, but he didn’t want someone to call and complain to 24/7
  • Sometimes you get stuck in a rut and he didn’t want a Sponsor to be a crutch, but more of a steppingstone
  • When Marcus first got sober, he still had a mindset that when he had difficult feelings, he wanted to drink
  • Marcus recommends finding someone that has their head on straight, misery loves company, and you need to be careful when choosing this person if that’s what you plan to do
  • Sponsorship needs more discussion, as there is not really a clear definition of what that relationship looks like
  • Same sex sponsors are most likely the best bet, it has worked for some people, but not everyone in the world is out for your best interest
  • There are sometimes ulterior motives unfortunately
  • One of the positives of Sponsorship is that there is someone where if you about to drink or if you find yourself in a difficult situation you can lean on them
  • Sponsors can technically be looked at as a sober friend, you could have all the support from family or friends, but if they are not alcoholics they have no idea what you are going through
  • There are people that want to take advantage of others, be mindful and careful of that
  • Marcus & Terry did not expect them to the only tool you use, you have to own your sobriety and do whatever it takes
  • A great TalkSober video that aligns with Sponsorship is ‘Can you get Sober without AA?’
  • Just because one sponsor does not work for you, it just means that situation didn’t work for you
  • Sponsorship cannot be a lifelong thing, so we cannot rely on them for the rest of our lives, but again it could be a great steppingstone



“Hi, Terry here, sorry I couldn’t make today’s webinar, but I do want to give you my experience with sponsorship. In today’s webinar Marcus and Brittany are going to cover some questions you may have about sponsorship. What is a sponsor? Do we or don’t we need a sponsor? Why or why don’t we need a sponsor? Can a sponsor actually hurt our recovery from alcoholism? So here’s my take……….

I have had a lot of experience with sponsorship in Alcoholics Anonymous. I have had a sponsor the entire time I have been sober, and I have sponsored quite a few men. What I say here about sponsors and sponsorship is just simply from my experience and observations while working the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. I am in no way an expert on sponsoring or being sponsored nor am I an expert in the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous. Also, I have next to zero knowledge about other recovery programs and weather they use sponsors or not. I use the program of Alcoholics Anonymous for most of my recovery program and that has allowed me to stay sober and love life.

With all that said, the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous does not mention sponsorship anywhere in the program part of the book. It does however have an entire chapter about working with other alcoholics as the founders of the program found that helping other alcoholics get sober was a sure way to help with their own recovery. Also, there is AA approved literature does talk about sponsorship.

So, what is a sponsor? A sponsor is simply an alcoholic who has made some progress in the recovery program. He/she shares that experience on a continuous, individual basis with another alcoholic who is attempting to attain or maintain sobriety. For myself, my sponsor helped introduce me to the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. He introduced me to others in the program, helped me to develop many new sober friends that I could relate too. He helps me to keep myself accountable in my sobriety. He helps me get through difficult situations by giving me an unbiased objective look at things so I can respond in a healthy productive way. In the beginning he showed me what to do during those days where I just didn’t know what to do with the boredom, stress, and anxiety of early sobriety. Basically, he gave me the tools that his sponsor gave to him for a successful sobriety. Now a days we kind of help each other remind ourselves about sobriety and what we need to do on a daily basis. My sponsor is an important part of my sobriety. He is an integral part of keeping me in that sober mindset that gives me serenity in my life.

So, do we really need a sponsor? Of course not!!! Many people get and stay sober without sponsors. I know many people that have long term sobriety that do not have sponsors. However, my experience and observations have shown me that people with successful sobriety had some sort of outside help. For some it’s a sponsor with a twelve-step program. For others it’s a doctor help with group counseling sessions. There are many ways to get and stay sober and I have always said try everything you can. And then settle in on what works. The key is, is to be honest, open minded, and willing to do what needs to be done for sobriety.

Now there are bad sponsors, just like there are bad people. After all, a sponsor is also an alcoholic in recovery and comes with his own set of past or present issues. My sponsor did and does not bring his problems into our relationship unless it can help what we are talking about. I’ve seen many that I personally would not want to be sponsored by. But maybe they are good for someone else. When I sponsor someone, I first find out if they are willing to do anything to get sober. I try to get a bit of their story. I try to see if we are going to be compatible to work together. I let them know that they are not bound to keep me as their sponsor and that my job is to take them through the 12 steps so they can begin a new better life without alcohol. When I work with them, I take them through the 12 steps, I will share my experience as to how it relates what we are covering that day. I will see if they can relate to what we are covering from their experiences. I don’t analyze, I don’t judge, I just try to help.

Can a sponsor actually hurt our recovery? Of course. The wrong sponsor can absolutely hurt someone’s recovery. There’s some important things to look for; Have they worked the 12 steps, do they have a sponsor, are they enjoying life in recovery, can you relate to them, can they make time for you, are they active in service work, do they go out of their way to help newcomers, do they listen to you, are they positive, you are not afraid of them, basically you want someone that is going to help you whenever needed and help you develop a happy sober way of living.

I think most alcoholics would be best served by getting a sponsor. You don’t have to keep that sponsor. If they don’t work out get another one or none at all. Just be careful that whatever decision you are making is with sobriety as your top priority. So, there you go, that’s my take on sponsorship.”



  • Great point in this letter, you could do everything possible, but if you don’t WANT to get sober you are not going to get sober
  • We carry around stories like a backpack thinking those are what defines us
  • Letting go of a story DOES NOT mean that someone who has harmed you means that they are off the hook
  • Sometimes when we get a sponsor we feel the need to re-hash every single horrible moment in our lives, but that is not the case
  • You can be both a healthy and happy person, who had bad things happen to them
  • Ruminating on old stuff can sometimes keep up in addiction, sometimes we need a different perspective
  • You are not the sum of what you’ve done, your thoughts or anything that’s happened to you
  • If you find a sponsor that supports that, just be here now and let’s just not be drunk
  • The whole point of this is that even if it’s not a sponsor, you need some form of foundation to protect your sobriety
  • Brittany will sometimes write down situations and how she would deal with them to not drink
  • If you are looking to a Higher Power, just know they are not it
  • Having a sober friend to bring perspective is so important as they can relate and know what you are going through – it’s a partnership
  • If and when you go through the steps, it’s not a race, take them seriously, be thoughtful and don’t compare yourself to others
  • Changing your life philosophy is so important in sobriety – the way you think and what you put into your mind is what you get out of it
  • A sponsor should be someone who points the way
  • Sponsorship should not be a dictatorship, more of a collaboration between two sober people
  • Stoic philosophy is really great for sobriety and that is where the serenity prayer came from
  • “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference”
  • Book recommendation: The Obstacle Is The Way by Ryan Holiday
  • In regard to feelings in early sobriety is the problem isn’t the feeling – it’s the explanation of them
  • We are all running a program and that can affect the way you think
  • Sponsors are there to help with vulnerability or situations you are not prepared for



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Suicidal Thoughts – Alcoholism – Depression

Topic: Suicidal Thoughts – Alcoholism – Depression – My Battle With Mental Illness And Suicide


  • It can be a passing thought and no emotional weight
  • You ARE NOT alone – 10th leading cause in the US is suicide
  • If you are dealing with these type of thoughts, you need to reach out (Suicide Prevention Line – 1 800 273 8255)
  • Alcohol mimics mental illness
  • People care about you regardless of who you are – if something like this happens it will affect them deeply
  • We look at things in term of society – example is that we have social media and that can have a long-term effect on people
  • The problem isn’t so much the solutions that we have, it’s the life philosophy we have
  • We tend to look at this and omit the middle part
    • Everything would be good if I had X, Y, Z
    • We skip what happens in between
    • In between is life – life philosophy – where life happens is there the true joy is
  • There’s always a new chapter and you get to decide what to do
  • Fear that drives these thoughts – What if this pain never goes away?
  • Chronic dissatisfaction is created in my mind
  • If you look for something, you most likely won’t find it… It’s the pursuit of happiness
  • Emotions are called emotions (look at motion) Motions trigger it
  • Meaning – what do you believe about life?
  • Alcohol creates artificial mental illness
    • When drinking, those are not your thoughts, those are alcohols thoughts
    • You can become very obsessive
    • Always remember… you are not alone
    • We are chemical beings – chemicals change minute to minute and they affect your emotions
    • There are certain things in life that put you in a thought loop
  • Situational thoughts
  • Sometimes the biggest win is making it through the day
  • Where is the hope?
    • We are sometimes looking for hope in the wrong places, it comes from you internally


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First 30 Days No Drinking

Topic: What happened when I stopped drinking for a month – 30 days no alcohol.


  • What is it like during the first 30 days of sobriety?
  • Terry:
    • Almost died during detox, was just thankful to wake up and be sober
    • There were a lot of things he had to do, but didn’t have the energy to really do much during that time
    • What he wanted out of sobriety was to get through the negative consequences & be serene
    • Experienced mood changes as during alcoholism all of his emotions were pushed down
    • Your personality may change once you’re sober
    • Had to take life and everything very slow
    • Did have trouble sleeping, took some time to get better for both Marcus and Terry
  • Marcus:
    • Thought that right out of rehab everything would be perfect/better and that was not the case
    • “Don’t wish things are different, wish they were better.”
    • First 30 days were a little mundane & anxiety was through the roof
    • Nothing is about you – you just think it is
    • “This happened to me” mentality
  • You’re just one of 8 billion people in the world – look at this in a positive way
  • In the first 30 days you have to learn to cope, have strength and find solutions to deal with difficult situations that don’t involve alcohol
  • A lot of drinking is social pressure, especially on holidays
  • Living near a place that has a lot of alcohol doesn’t mean you have to go
  • You need to create a support group/culture that supports you being sober
  • Sign up at and you can be a part of more intimate meetings that go into more detail on sobriety topics on Friday’s.

Uncomfortable In Your Own Skin – What To Do When You Hate Yourself

Topic: Uncomfortable In Your Own Skin – What To Do When You Hate Yourself


  • If you believe out of a belief system that is positive, you will be comfortable in your own skin
  • Life Philosophy – it needs to change in a positive way in order to live the life you want
  • Learn to be comfortable with yourself regardless… you have defects/you have things you don’t like about you, but so does every other 8 million people in the world
  • Sometimes you feel like you don’t fit in and that’s OK
  • You are no better or worse than anyone
  • Alcohol gives you an ego, if you are hating yourself that’s actually a form of self-love… you’re just not liking where you’re at
  • We all compare ourselves to others, but for what? Everyone is showing their good side (Social media comes into play here)
  • Focusing on gratitude and giving – you will get so much in return
  • The real stuff is who you are and who you impact
  • Enjoy the journey – if you have to do something you don’t want to do, look at it as a process
  • Always go to the doctor, even if you’re scared, the fear of not taking action is bigger than the fear of going
  • “Getting sober for something” – you need to want to get sober for you, not get sober for ‘something’
  • Basis for sobriety – trying to stay as honest as possible and make amends when or if you are dishonest
  • Resentment will affect your thoughts and change your mind
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Relapsed? – PLUS Insights On Bam Margera And Dr Phil And The State Of Alcohol Recovery In America

Topic: Relapsed? – PLUS Insights On Bam Margera And Dr Phil And The State Of Alcohol Recovery In America


  • State of addiction and recovery in the United States – he reached out for addiction assistance from Dr. Phil specifically
  • For every Bam Margera, there are people who can’t reach out for help in the way celebrities can
  • Often times, we look at it as all about money – sadly in some rehabs if insurance does not cover it, they are rejected – this is a flaw and a huge miscommunication
  • Of course, alcohol is made readily available, but help is not all the time
  • A lot of people need help, they don’t know where to get it and rarely anyone is looking at what is truly going on
  • “Let’s get to the root problem” – The root problem is actually alcohol
  • Alcohol becomes someone’s coping mechanism – for literally everything
  • We need to learn a new way of coping and it’s fucking up our life with our own hand – when you take the alcohol out everything is going to change
  • It’s easier to sit with your problems than drink them away
  • What is it that keeps us relapsing? It’s that first drink that ignites all of the neuropathways in your brain, then you’re right back where you’re at
  • IF YOU DON’T HAVE THE FIRST DRINK, YOU WILL NOT GET DRUNK – so how do we build defensives against that first one?

Guest – brittany over:

  • Grew up around alcoholic parents – made a commitment to never drink because of my experience with family issues
  • There was one time I had a drink, and it ‘helped’ my depression
  • Drank with my husband fairly often
  • Stopped drinking when I got pregnant
  • After breastfeeding I had that ‘one drink’ which led to me drinking every single night
  • I passed out every night, my husband took care of my daughter – I woke up, worked, and needed/wanted that drink
  • Upon reflection, I am really not sure why I was drinking so heavily, but I couldn’t stop
  • One week I almost lost my job, daughter and husband in one week – ended up drunk at a work event on my husbands birthday
  • Was in rehab for 31 days – felt functional, could be a Mother to my daughter
  • Looking back on my history, I realized that I was most certainly a dry drunk – fell back into having no self-esteem, didn’t use the tools I had built up from rehab – felt like I was just ‘living’
  • My husband left me – there were lies and someone else in his life – I do not recall even driving myself to the liquor store, but I did – I sat and cried for 30 minutes and said ‘Fuck it’ – so I relapsed
  • I couldn’t be a Mother anymore
  • Looked online because I needed help, I knew I had to get sober again – that is when I found Marcus & Terry
  • I called my Doctor and initially they ignored my cry for help – I called them back and told them No… you need to see me – they gave me the medications needed to get through detox safely
  • What would you say to someone who is out there that needs help:
    • It’s YOUR life – don’t wait – you are not guaranteed tomorrow
    • Build a support system
    • Are you scared to live sober? I am too – I still have my days, but what will make it worse is drinking
    • We don’t choose this life, but we choose what we do about it
    • Sober life is WONDERFUL

Notes continued:

  • There is a lot of fear around detox – you NEED to see a doctor
  • “Grateful never relapses”
  • When we are alcoholics we are completely self-absorbed
  • We sugarcoat alcoholism – NO – alcohol has taken over your life and that is how you need to look at it
  • Teaching is an active process
  • Sobriety is more than not drinking – it’s a serene life – it’s a fulfilled life – it’s a life that’s properly managed
  • Being sad and feeling things is a society thing – you are supposed to feel emotion

Non 12 Step – Stop Drinking Without AA?

Topic: Stop drinking without AA – Can you get sober without the 12 steps?


  • Can you get sober without AA or worshiping a God of your understanding?
  • A lot of people get hung up on the ‘God’ thing or religious aspect
  • Both Marcus & Terry did the 90 meetings in 90 days, Terry’s suggestion is to do everything you can to benefit your sobriety
  • AA does not work for everyone, period
  • Fill your mind with the ‘good stuff’ – something that is not our thoughts
  • For Marcus specifically, he has stigma related to religion and grew up in a realm up ‘cult like activity’
  • Whatever you choose, don’t look at it dogmatically – do what works for you
  • Terry – If you do choose to follow AA, follow it 100%, letting go and being honest
  • If you are going to live your life that is supportive of not drinking, it clearly will be easier to not drink
  • Sometimes you will feel ‘off’ – but you need a plan – this COULD be AA, it COULD be church, it COULD be talks – whatever works for you
  • Spiritual awakenings are never found by people who look for them – they happen when you get outside of your current thinking
  • Surrender to the insecurity that is life
  • You get to the point where the ego starts to fade away and look at it and know we are trying everyday
  • You don’t necessarily need to use AA, but you MUST have a plan
  • Spirituality could be defined as anything that ‘is not me’
  • We fail all the time – a lot of our indoctrination comes from school. We are trained to ‘Be Someone’
  • Vanaprastha means “one who gives up worldly life”. It is also a concept in Hindu traditions, representing the third of four ashrama of human life.
  • John 14, 15, 16 – ‘Being in the present of God’ – when you are in that presence and state of mind it’s almost impossible to get drunk or AKA ‘do the bad stuff’

Alcohol Abuse & Lies – What society gets wrong about Alcoholism!

Topic: Alcohol Abuse & LIES! What Society gets wrong about ‘Alcoholism.’


  • Society’s ideas of alcoholism
  • Addiction is tied into so many things much more than a habit
  • Does the ego matter? No – alcohol kicks your ass, we are chemical beings and putting poison in your body screws you up
  • Willpower alone will not get you through addiction
  • Look up ‘Sanford Prison Experiment.’
  • Discontent – “All suffering comes from desire.” – Buddha (Living a life free of desire and expectations)
  • Everything you hold dear could be taken from you, but we find contentment in ourselves – it’s the simple things
  • “Make a life something you don’t have to run from.”
  • We are not our addiction, we are not what we have done or said

Lies about alcoholism:  

  • “Alcoholics are degenerate losers.”
  • “Alcoholism is a moral failing.”
  • “You are an alcoholic because of your past issues.”
  • “Why don’t you just quit drinking?”
  • “I can still go to bars and parties and not drink.” (Willpower)
  • “Alcoholics are hopeless.”
  • “Alcoholics drink all day, everyday.”
  • “Alcohol is not as bad as drug addiction.”

Emotional Alcoholic

Topic: Emotions in Sobriety – Recovery – Emotional Alcoholic


  • We can sometimes mirror our parents/caregivers – if you grow up with people that don’t show emotion, that’s all you know
  • In early sobriety, and in most of sobriety emotions play a big part in your life and learning how to deal with them is key
  • You are put into a different state under the influence of alcohol and don’t react or handle emotions the same way when you’re sober
  • Dealing with emotions sober is so much easier sober
  • We try to fight being human and we look at the world as “This happened to me” – in reality it’s just life happening, and we are part of it
  • People are going to do what they do regardless of if you are there or not
  • Emotions won’t kill us – but alcohol will
  • Society is so bent on things that were taken from us (people, things) – perspective changes everything, you can look at it as you were a part of it
  • It’s important to look at every situation and determine your part in it
  • In early sobriety, try to relax and not fix everything – just stay sober which is a journey, not a destination
  • “If you don’t stand for something, you will fall for everything.”
  • Relationships/Marriage: True love is letting someone be free – you don’t want to hinder someone you love even if it’s without you
  • If you need something to be grateful for, be grateful for every day you wake up without a hangover (Not sick, no regret, not forgetting what you did)
  • There is a pathway in your brain called The Fuck Its – when you want to numb whatever you’re feeling and think drinking will “help” – you’re still going to wake up with that feeling because you didn’t deal with it
  • What are you going to do every day for your sobriety? It has to be your priority
  • We have an idea on what it looks like for someone to be happy, but happiness is different for everyone – STUFF doesn’t make you happy
  • What you learn gives you options, but what you DO keeps you sober
  • Live life slower – society makes us feel like we are rushed – enjoy what you have in each and every moment – sobriety allows us to do that (Be. Here. Now.)
  • Getting emotional serenity is a process and lays a strong foundation for continued sobriety
  • If counting days puts any pressure on you, tracking how much you are saving could work for you
  • You can always stop the world (metaphorically/your world) for 15 minutes – dealing with difficult situations/emotions (take a walk, plan what to cook for the night, read, listen to TalkSober.. etc)
  • In early sobriety it typically is difficult to sleep – instead of focusing on the fact that you can’t sleep, laying there is still resting
  • We all have personal defects – it’s OK to recognize that, determine if it needs to be corrected or not – don’t tunnel vision focus on it
  • If weekends are an issue, stop going to where the alcohol is – make different plans and if you have to, with different people
  • Happiness is in you, not in things

Death & Sobriety – Alcoholism and Dealing with Death

Topic: Death & Sobriety:  Talk about Life, Alcoholism & Dealing with Death.


  • Experts are just people that other people agree with
  • We have the tendency to not talk about grief/death in our culture, while other cultures look at it as beautiful and a part of life
  • When you celebrate someone’s life, they are never really gone – their energy is still with us
  • Letter #25 – Death – (Attendees responded with a lot of love on this one)
  • You’re never mentally prepared for anything in life – at the end of the day you just need to feel and be present
  • Instead of escaping, try to embrace, you don’t have to be perfect
  • Life is a gift – it’s how you choose to look at it – “Life gave me my next breath
  • Ego tells you that you never have enough
  • If you can make a difference in someone’s life, it’s worth living and you don’t have to drink
  • Crying isn’t being weak, it’s being strong – we are taught by society that it’s weak and it’s not
  • A lot of people use the excuse that “I’m an alcoholic, that’s what I do” – you can choose sobriety as quick as you choose to drink – all you need is an excuse to stay sober
  • It doesn’t matter that other people can drink normally – it just doesn’t
  • What we try to suppress – that’s what we get more of
  • You have to build a new life philosophy – we are all living and trying to love, and it gives you empathy to others – we are products of our conditioning
  • Stop basing what you do on what other people say
  • Money (a bit off topic) – doesn’t really matter – “I’d rather be broke and sober than rich and drunk.”

    What To Do In The First 30 Days Of Sobriety

How to stay sober when dealing with grief tips:

  • Talk about it – as stated above, we typically don’t in our culture, but holding it in will only make it worse
  • Instead of feeling sorrow, celebrate the time you had with that loved one
  • Be here now – not in the past, the future – be present
  • Never take a day for granted
  • Listen to talk, build a toolkit